from “The Spell” by Marie Howe

kfan:

Every day when I pick up my four-year-old daughter from preschool
she climbs into her back booster seat and says, Mom—tell me your story.
And almost every day I tell her: I dropped you off, I taught my class
I ate a tuna fish sandwich, wrote e-mails, returned phone calls, talked with students
and then I came to pick you up.
And almost every day I think, My God, is that what I did?

Yesterday, she climbed into the backseat and said, Mom
tell me your story, and I did what I always did:
  I said I dropped you off
taught my class, had lunch, returned e-mails, talked with students…
  And she said, No Mom, tell me the whole thing.

And I said, ok. I feel a little sad.
And she said, Tell me the whole thing Mom.
And I said, ok Elise died.

Elise is dead and the world feels weary and brokenhearted.
And she said, Tell me the whole thing Mom.
And I said, in my dream last night I felt my life building up around me and
  when I stepped forward and away from it and turned around I saw a high
  and frozen crested wave.

  And she said, the whole thing Mom.
Then I thought of the other dream, I said, when a goose landed heavily on my head—
But when I’d untangled it from my hair I saw it wasn’t a goose but a winged serpent
writhing up into the sky like a disappearing bee.

And she said, Tell me the whole story.
And I said, Elise is dead, and all the frozen tears are mine of course
and if that wave broke it might wash my life clear,
    and I might begin again from now and from here.

And I looked into the rearview mirror—
She was looking sideways, out the window, to the right
    —where they say the unlived life is.

Ok? I said.
And she said, Ok, still looking in that direction.

To ascribe this entirely to contempt for black men is to miss an essential variable, though—a very real, American fear of them. They—we—are inexplicably seen as a millions-strong army of potential killers, capable and cold enough that any single one could be a threat to a trained police officer in a bulletproof vest. There are reasons why white gun’s rights activists can walk into a Chipotle restaurant with assault rifles and be seen as gauche nuisances while unarmed black men are killed for reaching for their wallets or cell phones, or carrying children’s toys.
kfan:

"To live, just move forward towards those you love."

Needed this again today

kfan:

"To live, just move forward towards those you love."

Needed this again today

Know what is happening in Ferguson

tfsiosociety:

Know that Mike Brown was murdered without reason.
Know they left his body out, like they left out lynched Black folk to scare people
Know his community was grieving
Know they wanted solidarity and justice
Know they protested peacefully
Know they gathered
Know the police responded
Know the police are occupying Ferguson
Know that 20 departments have come into the community
Know they are throwing tear gas at people
Know that they have cut off road ways
Know the police are armed
Know the civilians are still peacefully protesting
Know that White community members have come armed in support of the police
Know that Black community members are only armed by the cameras on their smart phones
Know that the Black conduit for justice will only be Social Media
Know what is happening in Ferguson
Know that there is injustice
Pay attention before the media lies to you and tells you that any deaths from here on out were warranted

Pay Attention to Ferguson →

itchycats:

Please pay attention to what is happening in Ferguson right now.

The people of Ferguson are staging a peaceful protest regarding the unlawful, tragic murder of Mike Brown, and the police are responding with rubber bullets (one man has been injured so far) and tear gas, calling the…

The game “sort of encapsulates something that’s happening in our culture right now,” he explained, “where there’s …[this] ability to sudden[ly] become famous sort of out of nowhere that kind of almost mirrors a lot of what’s happening on the Internet lately.” According to Fanning, the democracy of the Internet makes the game feel more realistic, and therefore more rewarding to play.

I sort of kind of almost said some barely quotable things about Kim Game and The Internet on HuffPo yesterday.

These Men Say The ‘Kim Kardashian: Hollywood’ Game Isn’t Just For Women

stele3:

Ferguson Police have dogs and shotguns. The unarmed crowd is raising their hands.

For anyone not following the Mike Brown story on Twitter: a 17 year old black boy named Mike Brown, who was supposed to start college tomorrow, was shot to death in Ferguson, Missouri by police while jaywalking. He was unarmed. He was shot 9 times.

Initial media reports claimed that an 18 year old black man had been shot and killed while fleeing police after shoplifting.

People in the neighborhood, including members of Mike Brown’s family, came out of their homes and began to protest, shouting “no justice, no peace,” and keeping their hands in the air.

Media reports claimed that a violent mob quickly formed around the shooting location shouting “kill the police.”

Spread this. Tell the truth about what happened to this boy. Tell the truth about what is happening NOW. The police and the mainstream media is painting him as a criminal, and his community as a violent mob.

SPREAD THIS. Don’t let them lie.

(Source: whatwhiteswillneverknow, via danielleh)

Kevin Fanning says he had to save up “forever” to afford his character Kloaca’s turquoise pixie haircut.

Jess Zimmerman interviewed me for an article about men who play Kim Kardashian Hollywood. It is a very very very fun interview.

The Surprising Reasons Men Love the Kim Kardashian Game | TIME

Today in their newsletter the kind people at 29pco declared me an honorary family member. WHICH MEANS, that for today only they are making available for FREE issues of their iOS magazines that I have pieces in. So you can read my beverage reviews from Maura Magazine, or a very sexy story about Instagram and Fed Ex Office in The Lifted Brow, or a story about the terror of pumpkin spice lattes in 1/100. 
Maura & 1/100 are readable online or via their apps. Lifted Brow is app only. All are free! Click some links and download some issues and just have fun with it. They are cool people making cool things imo
http://www.mauramagazine.com/issue/515462c5c873d96e2e253aae/thirst
http://www.mauramagazine.com/issue/5318c8efc873d91fb3ee9306/reset
http://www.mauramagazine.com/issue/51bf2bedc873d91318a368ed/silver
https://itunes.apple.com/au/app/the-lifted-brow/id673152342?mt=8#_=_
http://1onehundred.com/issue/52373a35c873d930c350bb26/the_fall

Today in their newsletter the kind people at 29pco declared me an honorary family member. WHICH MEANS, that for today only they are making available for FREE issues of their iOS magazines that I have pieces in. So you can read my beverage reviews from Maura Magazine, or a very sexy story about Instagram and Fed Ex Office in The Lifted Brow, or a story about the terror of pumpkin spice lattes in 1/100. 

Maura & 1/100 are readable online or via their apps. Lifted Brow is app only. All are free! Click some links and download some issues and just have fun with it. They are cool people making cool things imo

http://www.mauramagazine.com/issue/515462c5c873d96e2e253aae/thirst

http://www.mauramagazine.com/issue/5318c8efc873d91fb3ee9306/reset

http://www.mauramagazine.com/issue/51bf2bedc873d91318a368ed/silver

https://itunes.apple.com/au/app/the-lifted-brow/id673152342?mt=8#_=_

http://1onehundred.com/issue/52373a35c873d930c350bb26/the_fall

The Kim game

emilygould:

I spent the weekend with my parents in suburban MD in advance of the DC Politics and Prose reading tonight, and I made Ruth come too though she had to go back to NY today for work. We had a fun weekend exploring DC’s cultural riches. Jk, we didn’t, instead we ate excellent free food, drank a lot of ice water with crushed ice made by the door of the refrigerator (luxury), did laundry (more luxury), and made my parents buy an Apple TV then downloaded half a season of Orphan Black to it. It’s been amazing and part of me will be sad to go home and confront the reality that I am 32, not 15.

My parents live in a high-rise apartment building. People interact more in elevators here than they do in New York, and also just in general. To be perfectly honest I’m against this, but I’m sure if I lived here I’d get used to it and grow to like it. Coming home on Saturday night from a dinner of delicious sushi, we boarded the elevator with a nicely dressed older couple, a man and a woman. I got on before them so I only saw them from the back.  Ruth and I were continuing a conversation we’d been having in the car about Kim Kardashian: Hollywood. I’d started playing it again earlier that day taking a hiatus after I outed myself for having actually spent money on it. I got Ruth to start playing it too because I’m a bad influence and an enabler.  I was saying something possibly incoherent about how “being famous for being famous” is not inherently a bad thing and I don’t remember the next part clearly but the nicely dressed older woman said something, unprompted, about Kim and the other Kardashians. Like, that they were “disgusting” or “shameful” or “a shame.”

We were all like “ha ha, okay, good night!” and got off the elevator and everyone else forgot about it immediately but I (obviously) did not and I still feel somewhat enraged.

Leaving aside everything to do with the specifics of Kim Kardashian, The Kardashians, the game, etc, there’s a thing that woman was doing that I have seen happen over and over again and I’ve never known quite what to call it. It’s when there’s a received idea about someone or something, usually a woman or a woman-specific cultural phenomenon, and that received idea is so pervasive and somehow so convincing that most people adopt it as their own opinion without ever stopping to examine either the idea or the person or phenomenon  for themselves. In this case the received idea is something along the lines of “The success of Kim and the Kardashians is representative of something very bad and I am against it.”  Conveniently, holding this kind of opinion doesn’t conflict with being interested in the woman/phenomenon in question and in consuming media related to her, or even created by her. (“Ugh, it was so horrible. I watched every episode/read the whole thing in a day.”) 

Whenever a lot of people think a woman is disgusting or shameful and for some reason feel incentivized to espouse that opinion loudly, something interesting is going on. What I realized in the elevator is that I’m on the side of every girl who people jump to conclusions about. I always want to know more about what’s going on with that girl, because the elevator people are boring and wrong. And really, they are missing out on a lot of fun stuff. 

————>”I’m on the side of every girl who people jump to conclusions about.”